Bet you Never Saw This Coming

DUDE

I AM TIRED.

I HAVE BEEN STUDYING RELIGIOUSLY, WORKING, AND WRITING.

I’M EXHAUSTED.

OI VEY.

Anyway.

I was trying to think of a fun, and easy random blog post to make up for the fact I spent most of the day lying around playing Episode (I’m brain dead), and Choices.

And really, I didn’t have one, until I found the Random Questions Generator.

HAHA

LET’S GET INTO TEN RANDOM QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS WITH YOURS TRULY.

I’ve never used this site before.

I hope this goes well.

UPDATE: I’ve tried it, I’m really quite fond of this website and highly suggest it. Thank you, C.B Daniels, for this resource I will actually be using quite frequently (I see a new addition to my Writing Resources List).

How well do you cope when you don’t have your phone with you for an extended period of time?

Terribly, actually. I have a desperate desire to know the time, and it’s really the only way I feel most comfortable communicating with people, so sadly, I go insane, or feel like I’m missing out on something important. I dunno, I also like to check the news, so maybe it’s just one of those weird nervous ticks about not knowing if somethings going on? Geeze, one question in and I’m analyzing my life.

Right.

Moving on.

What do you think about reality TV? Why is it so popular?

Probably because we’re all nosy folks who really like drama.

I am too, no judgment. I like drama, and I like to watch other people have lives that I could never. Or would never.

I guess it’s sort of a “Better she/he then me” situation?  Seriously though, I do think it’s very toxic, but I also understand that it’s not something to just disappear (especially if someone like me still insists on watching it), and it’s a way to make a living for some.  Logically if you took it off tv, that’d be a censorship of sorts, and the industry would take a huge hit, and not wanting either of those, I guess my solution if you don’t like reality tv is, Don’t watch it, don’t have anything to do with what promotes it.

What hobby would you get into if time and money weren’t an issue?

Right, so I’m already working on my gaming aspirations, but when it comes to a hobby such as that, probably traveling. Hobbies can be just about anything, and I would love to travel and experience different parts of the world. That and most likely working on my athletism, or lack thereof.

Who do you feel like you know even though you’ve never met them?

My past self. I know me from then, but I’ve never met me.

That’s too deep and complicated.

Um.

I got nothing.

What was the best compliment you’ve received?

You have a nice smile.

Or

If you believed in past lives, you could almost say that you were originally from the 1920s.

Mainly because I’ve never really received compliments like those, and while I do appreciate compliments, it’s ones like those that just really makes me grin because they’re different…

Would the world be a better or worse place if everyone looked the same?

Tough question. And hang on, don’t fly off the handle.

Let’s put it this way-if everyone looked the same, there would be no desperate desire to have beauty standards that we all strive to have in the world. We wouldn’t feel a desire to compare ourselves to others, because, the way this question is worded, we would naturally look the same. However, this would also cause flaws because no person would be capable of expressing themselves, and it could still play on how they compare themselves. Isn’t it sad, though, that in order to imagine a world where we don’t base ourselves off of others, we would have to figure a world where everyone looked the same?

That’s actually quite boring. Anyway, in conclusion, I think if we balance both sides, it would naturally have us at a disadvantage.

What could you give a two-hour impromptu lecture on?

A lecture? For two hours? Perhaps my views on a Christian’s response to the Pro-Life/Pro-Choice community.

Buddy don’t get me started, because I could go ON.

If your childhood had a smell, what would it be?

Oil.

Whether it be oil for wood, boots, or cars, that’s what our house smelled mostly of. That and Cinnamon. My mom had Cinnamon candles, and we love cinnamon gum. And she always cooks with cinnamon.

What are you absolutely determined to do?

I think the question is, what am I not absolutely determined to do.

But ultimately-serve my life for God and show His grace to those around me.

Do you care about fashion? What style of clothes do you usually wear?

I do care about fashion, though I don’t really have the budget to reflect it. And while I love a good outfit with a cute blazer, I also love flannel. What I usually just wear boot-cut jeans (I have some thiccc calves that I’m self-conscious about), and a t-shirt. Usually, I wear something like a hoodie or a jacket (or a flannel) over the t-shirt, so if I spill something on myself, I have a back-up.

What amazing adventures have you been on?

Not to be cliche or anything, but my entire life is an adventure. My families have been through some crazy stuff. My favorite types of adventures are random days, where my parents make an impromptu decision to go a bunch of places. The two days spent visiting colleges, one turned into an adventure. We started off going to view some colleges and ended up at Peaks of Otter, which was really random and fun. I could go into more detail, but really, I just end up rambling.

SO, this post has come to an end, my friend, and as it does, I just want to ask, which one of these questions is your favorite? And then, give me an answer for your favorite. Have you used this website? I’d love to hear!

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So…Ipsy?

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So one night, I was feeling a spending spree surging through me, and after watching one of my favorite YouTubers (Alexandria Ryan), I decided, hey, what the hex, let’s give that bad boy a try.

So I did, and here’s…what came in the mail.

For starters; the bag. It was…nice? Where I work (a thrift store), we receive occasional Ipsy bags and they seem to have nice quality, but whether it be the sequence or the way her face was printed, it definitely felt like some dollar quality stuff?

WHAT CAME IN THE BAG…

Nomad Highlighter…

I mean, this stuffs nice, I still have no idea what to do with Highlighter, it seemed, to be nice, online it runs for roughly 17 dollars, which is already more than what I paid for the bag. It was a lovely color, (Kiss of Sun in Balmoral Beach). It seemed to swatch pretty well, I did use it when getting ready…not properly-but then nothing’s going to look proper because I’m cheap and I REFUSE to buy a new bottle of foundation even if I am noticeably paler (I didn’t think that was possible, I thought I reached all levels of pale after being out of the sun for two years, but my skin decided otherwise-ANYWAYS).

Ipsy’s Betty Boop Eyeliner.

I DON’T KNOW HOW TO USE THIS.

It makes a mess (not specifically this one, just all eyeliner), and I can’t get anything to go on my eyelid besides eyeshadow, but it seems cool so we’ll see.

FIRST OF ALL.

This picture flipped itself, and I can’t fix it.

SECOND OF ALL.

This “It Cosmetics CC+” was something I really liked? It mixed well enough with my skin, and honestly it smelled good? I’m used to make-up smelling, well, make-upy, but this stuff smelled like the quality fruity shampoo/hair product stuff they sell in stores. So, big win. I’d honestly use it as perfume.

SO.

I have a confession to make.

I may or may not have…lost some of this stuff after I opened the bag, and took the photos, so I didn’t get to try this particular product-HOWEVER, I was excited to have this, and a few Youtubers I watch did say this stuff was really nice.

And let’s be real, Winter and Fall is actual murder on my skin.

So anything to help this mess (Acne), is a win-win.

Except Burt’s Bees.

And Neutrogena.

Those quite working and now my face doesn’t know what to do.

On Animal Jams, I was a Panda, and then they got rid of my account after they got rid of Pandas, so now I’m not anything at all.

On Animal Jams, I mean.

But anyway, I’ve read reviews where they say this doesn’t fit an adults face, and this concerns me, because I am 90% certain that my head/face is slightly larger then most. That being said, I’m excited to try these with my mom (they sent two), because I’ve been looking for some fun face-masks for a good self-care day. And here they are, so it’s really a win-win.

Overall Thoughts:

The concepts cool. The customer service is GREAT, they’re really helpful and friendly (I was concerned about my order on something, and the response was fast and reassuring). The products, I’m not sure how they equal over 50+ dollars, though I’m still new to makeup, and I just googled the Murad and just realized where most of the money comes from, that aside (HOLY ACTUAL COW).

UPDATE: I’ve just googled the IT cream.

SIR HAVE SEVERAL SEATS.

TAKE THEM ALL.

Because with money like that you could actually buy a movie ticket.

Maybe two.

I’m retracting what I said, I see where they calculate the money.

Anyway, the concept for Ipsy? Fun, it’s like a gift to yourself (unless you regift samples, in which case-same, so, a great gift for others), not to mention it’s a little exciting to receive packages, though I have been doing a lot more of that after I’ve developed a reclusive state in which I binge watch Youtubers and eat food that’s not OKAY.

The product quality is over-all pretty excellent, again, I…did personalize the bag so that I received eyeliners and highlights, but I’m not actually sure HOW to use them, no matter how many tutorials I watch.

The bag was a slight disappointment, it felt cheap, but then, I wouldn’t expect it to be like a money wallet.

Overall, it was exciting, and if you have a little extra money to spend, the surprise is definitely worth the twelve dollars.

So; final score:

95%

I was raised to be a tough grader.

What do you want from me?

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The Science Behind Self-Care

Over the past few years, self-care has been increasingly popular with the ever-growing acknowledgment of the mental health that plagues our society. Stress is our drug, it’s what keeps us going…right into an early grave. So naturally, we’ve decided that enough is enough, and we are just as important as what we’re fighting for. You can’t pour from an empty cup. But even with this common popularity, people still argue that they do care for themselves, and they can’t slow down too much. We can however agree that hygiene and taking care of your health is important and to that extent, I bring you to…The Science Behind Self Care.When It BeganAccording to ISF (International Self-Care Foundation), it was a movement that began during the 19th century and carried on into the 20th century. It was revolutionized as people began to accept the idea of the medical world. What It Is

“Self-care is any activity that we do deliberately in order to take care of our mental, emotional, and physical health.”-Psych Central

Psych Central wrote an article summary on what Self-Care is-and isn’t. And in summary, it appears most everybody says the same thing-self care is taking care of those three aforementioned qualities.Why I’m Making a Whole Darn Series On ItI like to do research, and I like to make a point, but with facts, so here it is.What to Expect

  • Different Areas of Self-Care
  • Scientific Reasoning (A.K.A, Information pulled from studies/articles), on why you should focus on self-care.
  • Tips on how to manage self-care

I’m not a professional, by the way.I’m just a teenager who genuinely finds the reasoning behind these fascinating. I know last week I said I’d launch the series, but I wanted to provide an actual idea and cover what I mentioned above.That being said, I apologize for the delay, I got slammed with work, and then I’ve been procrastinating getting sick (it’s not worth explaining).Now, onto the sponsor.Today’s post is sponsored by FabFitFun. Fabfitfun is a seasonal subscription box that gives you a chance to experience quality products worth over 250 dollars combined, all for just $49.99. Fall’s box was a lot of fun, and I know they’re currently running a few a codes that gives you 50% off your purchase, so by clicking on the image bellow, and using for the code fall50, (for a limited time), you should be able to get 50% percent off this box, which will get you started down a path of, if nothing at the very least, some quality re-gifting. (Because if you’re cheap like myself and my mom, and some things make for great gifts for our friends).20190413_235924_00006191441673412637315.png

Why Cash isn’t the best way to Solve Poverty

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On  March 31st, 2017, the HuffPost released an article written by Mark Hovarth. This article was talking about the idea that giving homeless people money is okay if you feel comfortable.

He constructs the article talking about how to give them money and even goes as far as to say why. He argues the idea that it’s wrong to believe that they would go and spend the money on drugs and alcohol and even if they do-their homeless, so why not? (He wasn’t advocating it, but you know, something to take the edge off).

And I can respect that opinion, you know, the “Well it’s not my business” mindset.

I can, however, give you two reasons why it will most certainly hurt to give cash at will.

1. Drugs and Alcohol are often not permitted in shelters geared toward homeless people.

After spending two years volunteering in one (a homeless shelter), I can tell you why.

Frequently, when purchasing alcohol or drugs of sorts, the person may become rather disruptive. This can cause a problem for the others staying, as it’s both disruptive and unfair. If the patron who consumed the alcohol or drugs fails to abide by set rules and proves to be disruptive and show disrespect toward others, then they will be asked to leave-thus furthering the dangers of the streets, taking away their opportunity of a fairly (no place is entirely safe) place to sleep.

2. Mental Illness

The National Institute of Health released an article on the effects of severe mental illness and the effects that the substances have on them.

“Compared to controls, people with severe mental illness were about 4 times more likely to be heavy alcohol users (four or more drinks per day); 3.5 times more likely to use marijuana regularly (21 times per year); and 4.6 times more likely to use other drugs at least 10 times in their lives. The greatest increases were seen with tobacco, with patients with severe mental illness 5.1 times more likely to be daily smokers. This is of concern because smoking is the leading cause of preventable death in the United States.” (National Institute of Health, 2014)

Naturally, you might be wondering how this affects the idea of giving money to those who are going through a hard time/are on the streets.

According to SAMHSA,

“According to the National Survey of Drug Use and Health (NSDUH), an estimated 9.8 million adults aged 18 or older in the U.S. had a serious mental illness (SMI), including 2.5 million adults living below the poverty line.” (SAMSHA, 2016)

Of course, the argument could then be “You can’t assume that everybody is struggling with substance abuse”. However, you yourself (if you argued that sometimes it doesn’t quite matter), just admitted, that even if they buy the liquor, it could help.  Not to mention, I myself, after volunteering in the area for a few short months, had gotten an idea on where you could pick up drugs (i.e sneakers on telephone lines), and by driving in the part of town below the poverty line, you could easily witness a few drug handoffs. Listen hard enough to those in that area, and you’ll hear where you can buy anything fairly cheap.

So now, you’re probably wondering, what am I supposed to do, how can I help?

And I have answers for that.

–Keep actual snacks fairly handy.  Maybe a few water bottles/Gatorade in your car, a small thing of snacks to hand out. If you’re out walking the city, consider gift cards. Though they can be traded, the chance of them doing that, rather than getting something to eat is smaller.

—Educate yourself on the local organizations that exist to help those who are struggling.

—- When coming in contact with someone who’s struggling, gauge the situation. If they’re homeless, find a way to assist them in that area. If they’re struggling financially but have a place to stay, direct them to an organization that would help them with what they’re struggling with.

—–If you have extra time, call the place for them, let the organization know that you have someone who needs help, and turn the situation over to the,.

Overall, the mentioned options are much better than handing out cash. Making sure you know of the places that there are to help, and giving them food and water are key.

HOWEVER, do not put yourself in a situation that you might feel uncomfortable in. This is supposed to help the other person, but you don’t want to hurt yourself in the process.

That being said, what are your thoughts on this particular topic? I’d love to hear your thoughts below!

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Work Cited

Horvath, Mark. “Giving Money to Homeless People Is Okay.” HuffPost, HuffPost, 31 Mar. 2017, http://www.huffpost.com/entry/giving-money-to-homeless-people-is-okay_b_58de9ef7e4b0ca889ba1a57b?guccounter=1&guce_referrer=aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuZ29vZ2xlLmNvbS8&guce_referrer_sig=AQAAAJq84-pEAYZ88Dy6xTWunpX3i0zFlrdhbPTbbziBsIxgx_h1wcHifi6gqUh4vYwctqAkRKZzd2XoXz6jgspi_BbgyY8GfqlxZvbTULA5kYxu-Pmhl3Z5Sl2EbOqjREVSGGUz9ceCOYSAh3ArbMvDt6079LHrnJLN8Ov1nLiyAMnV.

“SERIOUS MENTAL ILLNESS AMONG ADULTS BELOW THE POVERTY LINE.” Serious Mental Illness Among Adults Below the Poverty Line, 15 Nov. 2016, http://www.samhsa.gov/data/sites/default/files/report_2720/Spotlight-2720.html.

“Severe Mental Illness Tied to Higher Rates of Substance Use.” National Institutes of Health, U.S. Department of Health and Human Services, 8 Sept. 2015, http://www.nih.gov/news-events/news-releases/severe-mental-illness-tied-higher-rates-substance-use.

A BUTT TON of Make-up (Nyx Everyday Glow Look Kit Review)

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Well

So, I recently had a birthday, and have approximately 359 days until I’m a whole grown adult. That being said, I also lost my make-up (catastrophically) in the midst of house renovations (and moving rooms around), so I decided, what better excuses to burn my hard-earned money on beauty enhancing things, other than my birthday.

So, here’s a little run-down on what I got (just the basics, I’m not a beauty guru-I barely mastered the hand of applying mascara).

Nyx, Everyday Glow (Look Set)

Place of Purchase: Kohls

Total: $16.00 (On Sale)

Thoughts:

I do love this set, I really do.

Mainly the eyeshadow.

Basically the eyeshadow.

Anyway,

I have this great Asian skin, that once tanned, but then, my Italian side started to play a role, and now, I just…sweat…when I’m in the sun.

The point is, I can’t wear lipstick very well, it interacts with my skin color in a funny way, gives my this strange illusion of being a dollar store goth girl (I wish I could pull off the goth look). And if not, I just, don’t have lips, and they are a naturally more pink color, and it’s really just a bunch of factors that make the lipstick TERRIBLE for me, but luckily, there is one color that really matches my skin-and forgive my babbling.

Here are the swatches.

The color that I found looked the best on me was the top color, it was just the right pink with a hint of a darker color that I needed.

On other thoughts-this lipstick does last a good amount of time. I put it on when I went to work, and it lasted until lunch (so roughly five hours), and then I went to my party (I went bowling with a few friends and my family-good times) and it lasted well into the evening, and my TV binging following, so I do suggest this lipstick, in general, if you’re looking for something that lasts.

Now, for the highlight.

(I’m still learning how to use the camera function on my phone, apparently.)

Listen.

I don’t understand highlight.

I have oily skin-the whole point of concealer and foundation for me is to be less of the shining sun and more of a lightning bolt.

So why am I whipping more shiny juice on my face?

I digress, I do sometimes put it on-and then regret it because people can see me a mile away, and I just want to make friends-not blind other drivers.

But for highlight, and from other people’s ideas on highlight- I would say it’s really nice all things considered, it’s very sparkly and bright. I do appreciate the way it swatched across my hairy arms (are you supposed to shave your arms-the juries still out on that, but even then-winters coming, and I’m not getting rid of my built-in coat anytime soon). I also appreciate the color variety, I don’t know how highlight works, but it seems okay. I do have to say that I can use two colors on a normal look, and then maybe one or two if I’m feeling wild, and I don’t have to go out for another two hours (give them time to cool off before they meet the real world). The other colors are darker, but I guess anyone can wear them?

Again, I don’t watch beauty gurus, I watch health & fitness channels and mukbang channels (you know, balance).

The Eyeshadow-

(I I these pictures aren’t phenomenal, but I was SO excited to try this new makeup, nothing was stopping me from these types of photos).

She’s gorgeous. Seriously, my favorite eyeshadow. I have a huge E.L.F pallet from Christmas, but I do love this pallet-just one problem.

I can’t get it to layer/blend like I want. I know how to layer two-to-three colors and make it look consistent (sort of), but with this pallet, the colors are so over-powering that it actually will cancel out any other color that it’s paired with, and it doesn’t really work as an under-eye color. But I still do love it, and the colors. It works really well for a natural look, and I still am very excited to use it.

All that set aside, I am very excited to announce, that along with my attempt at make-up (it says part one, so let’s hope I actually make a part two) post, I actually have a sponsor to go along with all my lifestyle folk (including myself).

*I also want to note that before I jump into this pitch, that by having sponsors this will help me to keep ads off my blog. I know I’ve been adding them a lot, and it can get annoying, but I do appreciate the patience you all have exercised. As a high school/college student, I’m hoping to be able to put more time into this, but in order to do that, I have to pull a little bit more revenue. I actively reached out with these sponsors, because I knew of their brands, and found them to be something I personally am very interested in. Please don’t let this affect your interactions with my blog, this is very exciting, as, after three years, we’re finally doing really well. My content won’t change because of the sponsors, and again, I do appreciate your patience!*

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So, now, my question stands-what exactly are some key parts of make-up? Is setting spray important, and most of all? If my eyebrows are bushy, are they still something I’m supposed to fill-in? I’d love to know!

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Why I didn’t get help-and Why You Should

Listen, it’s Suicide Prevention Week, and usually, I’d make some fancy pictures-I even tried to compile a list of information, on why it’s such a big deal. Make a nice report, if you will. This is, what I wrote instead. I didn’t get help at this point in my life but it’s something you should do. I don’t know how I made it through; other than by the grace of God. I know that He would have wanted me to get help, though, rather than sitting in a pool of misconception and unconventional lies to myself.

So, if you’re feeling Suicidal, or even, depressed, please take time to get help, to begin the journey of healing-you mean so much to the world.

*Trigger Warning*

I can still remember the day pretty clearly. I was starting to get incredibly poor on myself. I had been struggling with school-but my pride refused help.

And that was what drove me insane; my pride.

You see, roughly three years ago, I wanted to die. Roughly three years ago, I was holding a container of Ibuprofen, sobbing on my bed, despising myself for the smallest mistake.

I stopped caring for myself but didn’t know how to explain it to others. I had convinced myself that I was trying to seek attention; and allowed myself to suffer in silence for over a year, before hinting at it, and eventually, forgetting that part of my life existed. And over time, I healed, sort of. I couldn’t tell you why I wanted to die, back then. I just hated how terrible I was-how I could never make it, how I wasn’t worth the time of day. How, for somebody so talentless, I was also racking up debts for my family because I was consistently sick.

And whether it my brain or my conscious, I worked desperately to wrestle with my thoughts that day. Suicide, it’s not the answer. It won’t solve my problems. Everybody will be so disappointed in you…but then, I was 100% convinced I was already a disappointment.

I was the reason that everything went wrong in every bodies life-but also, how dare I think I even was capable of crossing peoples minds.

My thoughts were contradictory, and I always fought for a reason to view myself as a despicable human being.

Looking back, I could tell you every reason for it; and the answer is,

My Perfection Drove me to levels of insanity.

You couldn’t tell that I’m a perfectionist if you looked at me-spoke to me. You probably wouldn’t even guess that I have anxiety attacks about not properly conversing with people, or because I failed a test.

I could never measure up to my friends, who had talents of some sorts-who could write, or draw. Maybe they played sports, and/or instruments. It didn’t matter, I wanted to be like them, I wanted that talent. I wanted that capability. But in my mind, I was nothing. I could do nothing. I meant nothing-everybody was lying to me.

They had to be.

My work; in my eyes, it wasn’t good enough.

It could never be good enough.

So why try at all?

But, what also rang in my combatted all of these thoughts.

Why do you always make yourself the center of attention?

You don’t matter that much. You don’t cross people’s minds every time of the day? Why are you being narcissistic?

SO selfish.

You could probably see how that would drive anyone insane. So, I clasped the pills, argued with myself for a bit, paced the floor, sobbing violently. And somehow, argued myself to chucking them somewhere in the void of objects that cluttered the closet.

I collapsed on my bed.

Still wrestling with these thoughts, I figured up several different ways to die.

All so dramatic.

Maybe I was just getting attention? That’s what this had to be, my selfish attempts at attention.

I don’t know how I managed to make it through that day. I really don’t, my last memory of that day is praying violently to God, pleading with him to help me convince myself that I had a life worth living. I remember journaling, and flipping through pictures, trying to reason with myself that was, all I remember about that day.

Until recently, I never brought it up, concerned that I was trying to bring attention to myself, and overall, concerned that I wasn’t actually struggling then. In retrospect, I was. I didn’t bring it up to my parents, in fear that they would think that it was irrational. My parents were more concerned about how they could have helped, and upset that they didn’t.
I should have spoken up, I went through added years of anguish that still bleed into my thoughts to this very day. I should have gotten help, and I know, that if you struggle with thoughts like that, you should too.

Where I made my mistake, was trying to minimize my problems.

What followed after was a series of panic attacks where I would try to pull at things-my hair, my skin, my clothes, leaving scratches on my skin, and a rather sore scalp. I had scattered thoughts, and genuinely, truly, even while I preached the importance of getting help to friends and family, I still needed help.

Don’t let yourself get to that point-don’t let yourself get to the point of insanity or suicide. You matter you matter so much more then you realize. Everybody has a different journey and a different story. You add vibrant colors to the world that you might not realize, and while it might not seem like it now-it will.

Take time to talk to someone and take time to get help. It’ll be worth it.

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So I have approximately 368 days until I’m an adult

Well

So, my birthday’s rounding the corner (I know, I know, seventeen, the last year of being a legal child), and I’ve been trying to think of a way to make a big deal of it, so I decided, to do a Birthday Tag.

Fascinating stuff, right?

(Also, I may or may not be crunched to write a decent post, but also half asleep, so let’s see what I can do).

I would also like to note, that I couldn’t find any birthday tags, except this one, from Journey Speaks, so kudos to you, my friend.

*AHEM*

Let’s begin.

When’s your birthday?

September 14th, 2002-So technically, Saturday.

How old are you turning?

Somewhere between Ancient, and I’m Just a Baby Child, so…Seventeen.

What’s the most favorite present that you’ve received?

My brother actually gave me these little beaded bracelet’s that had owls and turtles; they came in multiple colors. I don’t have them still because I wore the living daylights out of them. My other favorite gift would be an American Girl Doll I got when I was five.

Are you/did you have a party this year? If so what are you doing/what did you do?

I’m actually going bowling with my family and some close friends. My mom sort of threw it together a few weeks ago, after I had a hard time finding what I wanted to do (I work on my actual birthday-when they have all the major events going on, so that made things tricky). She always manages to make birthdays special.

How do you usually celebrate your birthday?

In my family, we have Birthweeks. Because we don’t really go all out on any other holidays, it’s a big deal. It also helps to make sure my mom and brother (since they share a birthday)miss out. Anyway, basically, we give little gifts throughout the week, and they get charge over the TV what/where we eat, and that sort of thing. We also hang up the birthday banner (well, usually, not this year, it kinda bit the dust), and smaller decorations.

What was the most memorable birthday you’ve ever had?

Honestly, they’re all pretty memorable. The most memorable would have to be my eleventh. I had a great party, but some drama went down in the background and kind of bled into the next few days and made me a bit…emotional. Long story short, it was both good and bad.

If you had an unlimited amount of money what would you do for your birthday?

That’s a loaded question. Honestly, I’m a bit of a…material girl, so you know, probably definitely a VERY LARGE shopping spree, but also, I’d probably travel with the ones I loved to a different Country.

Perhaps, Scottland, or Paris.

What’s your birthday wish list?

Pfffttt, probably Money.

Honestly, though, now that I have a job, I prefer to buy things for myself. And I’d probably just end up putting it toward a computer, or school…

But, other items might be

Books

Sims 4 Packs

Notebooks

I really, don’t know.

If you only had one birthday left, what would you do for your birthday?

1)Have Anxiety that it was my last birthday

2) Do the above, but also invest a butt-ton of money so that my family and a few choice organizations were financially secure.

3) Throw a Huge Party and Travel to a TON of places

 Show a picture of your birthday, preferably an embarrassing one.

I’m not going to lie, I’m pretty sure Google has deleted a bunch of photos because we are missing a TON. So really, the only two I could find was from my eleventh birthday, and my 14th birthday (3-ish years ago). It could also be that I deleted them. I also took a picture last year, but it’s just…not interesting. So I’m going to have to hard pass this question.

Do you have any birthday traditions? 

Act as if I’m treating myself more so than I do on a normal base.

But also, just as I said before, BirthWeek.

That’s pretty much it.

What’s your favorite part about your birthday?

Being the center of attention. And telling old stories with my family and reminiscing about specifically hilarious events.

 What’s one thing that changed a lot since your last birthday?

I’m less depressed, so things are different in every way. I’m able to enjoy things more without feeling utterly terrible, and over-all, I’m excited about it, more than I am dreading the idea of getting older and “adulting more”.

Have you ever been thrown a surprise party or have you ever thrown one for someone? 

No to both, but trust me, I will. I freakin’ love birthdays-specifically others. I go bankrupt (not really, but I do excercise more self-control than usual when birthdays are around) around birthdays. I love making people feel special and seeing them have a good time…

Right, I’m genuinely curious, Birthday or not, how would you answer these questions? When’s your birthday, and what’s your absolute favorite thing about birthdays?

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Now, Without further ado, sound of in the comments down below, and let me know the above stuff, but also, what’s the most hilarious birthday story that you have?

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