2020-The Year of Healing

There’s nothing more refreshing then a new year. For me, Christmas can stand down because New Years Day has a certain excitement that can’t be reached. It proves to me that I made it through one hex of a year, and you know what, I’m gonna kill another.

If I’m honest, I love fresh starts.

However, I feel as if I need to wrap up 2019, and this decade, in some of my most notable moments.

  1. I became dual-enrolled, and received B’s in the two classes I did take. (I only took two because I was just trying it out). I’m proud to say I paid for a majority of each class and their requirements.
  2. I dyed my hair. This is big because I’m not really a rebellious kid-I’m kind of a stiff neck, but this was one rebellious thing I wanted to do. So I begged my mom to let me do it before I was eighteen, and she agreed. I did have it professionally done because I’m a clumsy hot mess and I didn’t feel like cleaning out the tub or trying to fix my hair if something went wrong.
  3. I was officially employed for one whole year.
  4. I started working in both retail and food services, and have in fact realized that I do not want to do either for the rest of my life.
  5. I got my license.
  6. Sponsors!!
  7. I reached 165 followers (and counting, here’s to ya’ll)!
  8. I went self-hosted.
  9. I joined a church I’m truly comfortable with.
  10. I found my writing niche.
  11. I met some great, real friends. Even if they are online, I finally found a group of friends that I feel comfortable enough not to have to filter myself.
  12. I stopped trying to live my life pleasing others, or proving them wrong.
  13. I stopped trying to be better than everybody else and just decided to be the best me that I can be.
  14. I accepted that the emotional/mental abuse I went through as a child is not something I should blame myself for; nor should I try to bottle up the emotions that come with remembering.
  15. I’ve recovered from major past trauma and events, and I’m finally ready for the next step-healing.

In wrap-maybe I didn’t do my New Years Resolutions, but I sure did pretty well. I will say, when I talk about emotional and mental abuse, I’m talking about some extended family members. Earlier this year, I had a breakdown and had to admit what I was feeling from it. It was a lot to admit, but ultimately, I’ve spent a lot of the year trying to talk with someone about it, and just be honest. You know, recover-thank God for my brother and parents; couldn’t have done it without their support. I’m moving on from the abuse (again, strictly emotional and mental, but definitely a dark point in my life).

So with the conclusion of that, here’s to Twenty-Twenty.

The year I Heal.

The year I step outside the box.

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Looking for something special to treat yourself to? Try the Fabfitfun box. Fabfitfun is a subscription box that ships seasonally, giving you a bare minimum box worth of $200.I loved the Winter box-everything I received I’m using/have used, and can honestly say I don’t regret it-the blanket I got alone makes me happy-and the speaker; I was just so stoked. You can check it out here.

Even though it’s late, I will be posting a review for it; I loved the box that much-I got some incredibly aesthetic photos-a rarity for me, I don’t usually. (Seriously, I was so proud I showed my mom like it was artwork or something).

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To get a discount use the code SOCOLD (even though where I live we had a cold Thanksgiving, and Christmas was seventy-stinking-degrees), and get $10 off your purchase.

Also, about the sponsors, I really appreciate the fact that nobody’s lost their mind about this-I wouldn’t do it, however, I’m trying to turn my blog into something that I can keep up in college, and even the smallest amount helps there.

Anyway, see you next year!

Story Starter Boot Camp OverView

I took a nap yesterday and I’m just now feeling like my normal self, so if that doesn’t explain why I don’t take naps, I don’t know what will.

WELL HELLO THERE.

That was aggressive, but also completely besides the point.

It ’tis I, the great Hazi, the writing QUEEN, here to give you your dream series, the series we’ve all wanted, but never had.

All in one neat 2 month (technically it’s Seven Weeks of Tips, not Eight, but let’s roll with it), package.

Now of course, you might be wondering, what’s the series going to cover? Is this like those church series that Pastor’s have? Am I going to have to bring a notebook? Should I chug caffeine? Should I bring bandages because you’re going to say things that hurt?

NO.

Except maybe caffeine, I mean, if you need caffeine, I guess? Weirdly enough they have these caffeine chocolate bars at my college campus, and I don’t know how to feel about them.

*Sip Diet Aspartame*

Moving On.

This series is for all of you out there struggling with how to start a story, when you want to start one, but those characters won’t flow, the story line won’t mold, or those thoughts that won’t make since. It’s for the insomniacs who want something to think about besides how exhausted they are (been there). It’s for the writers who have finished novels and are working on there next, and most of all, it’s for me.

Because let me tell you, writing a book from scratch is not easy.

So, what will this series boot camp provide?

Prompts

Advice

Writing Drills (It’s now a thing)

Reading and Writing Assignments

Rhetorical Questions (That you have to answer in your head)

Sarcasm (Because it wouldn’t be my type of series without it).

Are you ready?

Good.

Now, for an overview.

Now it’s occurred to me a calendar set up might work, but I’ve also come to realize that I don’t actually know how to make those, and these posts go up weekly on Tuesdays (with the exception of Today-Wednesday, because of my nap yesterday).

So, enjoy this super-aesthetic bulletin schedule I’ve put together.

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What you will need:

Your Favorite Pen (If you don’t have one-get one, treasure it, yell at others for touching it, clean it, loose it, cry about loosing it, find a new favorite pen.)

A Notebook (But not a pretty one, because if you’re like me, your dedication won’t stick).

A Determined Attitude

Creativity

Enthusiasm

Are you ready? Because these next few weeks are going to be quiet the journey, and I’m going to need your best work!

Stay Ginchy, Get Rest, and be ready to shine.

HaziWords

 

 

Another Overview

Greetings and salutations!

‘Tis I, the great Hazi!

I am SO BEYOND sorry for missing last week, I have no idea what happened with the hours, but they disappeared. That being said, I did record the incredibly interesting life of me (I am so, so, sorry).

And here today:

A Week Overview

…Monday…

Psychology Begins, I am a genius, and then I came home and had a panic attack about not getting my homework done. I also went out to dinner with my mom and brother.

…Tuesday…

A force to be reckoned with, I spent the ENTIRE day at my mom’s job, and if you want to know the description of batty, that was me at the end of it all. I did get a decent amount of writing done, and did a little volunteering there, but really, because I lacked WiFi connection, it shot a majority of my homework.

…Wednesday…

Class again, and really just hung out a home with my family.

….Thursday…

I went in with my mom to work, mainly because I had to interview a co-worker of hers for a school project, but also because I like the idea of feeling busy. I did a reasonable amount of studying that day, and enjoyed getting to talk with such a ginchtastic lady.

….Friday…

My mom had a series of personal appointments (The Doctors, the Hair Dressers), and then we went grocery shopping, Nothing too exciting happened, other then I took my mom and brother out to lunch for “Valentines Day”.

…Saturday…

I worked, I came home and hung out with my family, we ordered pizza and watched movies. Once again, nothing fantastical, except I hit 14,000 WORDS ON A STORY, ONLY TO…

…Sunday….

Lose it all. My computer had locked up and I wasn’t able to open or save any documents, so I had to shut off without saving, and lost, 4,000 words-2 chapters, which, doesn’t seem like a lot, but considering how easily distracted I can get, it is. I got up early to volunteer with my mom in her job this morning, then came home and chilled with the rest of my parents. I watched two movies, back to back, and am very proud to say, I didn’t skip a scene I found boring (The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, and Princess Diaries).

And that really concludes the week. Fascinating?

I think not, a blog post?

Probably shouldn’t be, but it is. Make sure to check out tomorrows Writers Square Book Shot!

Thanks for reading! How was your week?

Remember to live your life like the ginchy story that it is!

HaziWords

An Over View and Future View

2018 was quiet the year, wasn’t it, folks?
For me, it was a little less enjoyable then most.
In honesty, I was really, very depressed for a good part of the year.
I was unmotivated in everything I had passion for, and found myself to be an emotional…wreck.
That being said, I did have a few landmarks this year…
1. Turning Sixteen-While slightly exhilarating, still a big deal.
2. One Hundred Followers-Oh yeah, baby, we are doing SO well, I am SO thankful to everyone, for following me on this journey. It’s such a blessing, and I am SO SO thankful to all of you all.
3. I get to celebrate a year with my Guinea-Sherlock, Squishington, it’s been a ride, hasn’t it little buddy? (He can’t even read this, I might need help).
While I feel like it’s been a whirlwind, I’ve learned a lot more then I have hit landmarks.
I’ve learned about loss, and having to bounce back, the inevitable circle of poverty, and amongst other things, accepting that things SUCK, but God will definitely pull me through, and has a reason for it all.
I’ve made new friends this year, and I’ve lost some others.
I’ve made grown up decisions, like cutting myself away from toxic situations.
And I’ve been childish, like allowing myself to slack on my responsibilities, and getting winded by others so easily.
I’ve had quiet a few cry-sessions, argued with myself, and fought several feelings.
I’ve come out stronger, in some ways, and in others, well, we have some learning to do.
I had my first crush on someone for their appearance and soul, not just who I wanted them to be. (I’m learning that guys, are very, very cute inside and out, and I, am a very, very awkward taco).
I am a little bit closer to God, but I feel like I’ve moved behind.
I’m not proud of this year, I was struggling, physically, emotionally, and mentally.
I didn’t reach many of resolutions, but that doesn’t mean that we aren’t going to try again. That’s the beauty of all things new, it’s fresh, it’s a start, and it’s going to be BOMB.
So here’s to new years, and it’s resolutions.
Ah yes, glorious resolutions. I made a few, for this year, didn’t I? Well, somebody did get a camera, and they did hit one hundred followers, and someone is ready to start her publishing process (or just about).
I think that 2019, might be better then the last, let’s take a look.
1. Score High on the SATS
2. Begin the Publishing process for two stories.
3. Start my Youtube channel, and keep a consistent schedule for six months.
4. Reach 250 Followers on HaziWords.
5. Exercise at least twice a week.
6. Read through HALF the bible, in a year.
7. Apply for major colleges.
8. Get my Drivers License.
9. Remain on a blogging schedule for six months.
10. Remain on a Routine for six months.
11. Cut back on dairy.
12. Make one major long-term investment/purchase.
13. Save at least 50% of any income that I receive (from work or otherwise).
14. Develop Two new skills, and work diligently.
15. Learn One new language.
16. Spend time every morning praying and reading God’s word.
17. Try to become an early person.
18. Focus on sharpening my grammar abilities.
19. Develop better math skills.
20. Read Three Books a Month.
21. Write in my journal once a month.
22. Complete a challenge of some sort.
23. Release new Adventure blog with friends.
Perhaps last year I was a bit ambitious. I struggle sometimes to remember that I have a tendency to get lazy and slack off.
HOWEVER, something occurred to me.
I really like working for stuff.
Seriously, I enjoy the idea of earning something.
So I’ve decided to work on a reward system.
While it’s not yet perfected (I will release a perfected version soon), the general idea is simple:
Every Month that I complete a task, I earn something that might help with it. And every two weeks, a smaller prize.
For Example:
Working out Twice a week. (I know, I know, it’s sad, I quiet literally NEVER work out, though, and am heavily out of shape, so that’s something I want to fix).
For every two weeks, I might reward myself with something small, such as new fancy work-out hair ties, or maybe a special smoothie.
One a Month, I might purchase myself something larger, like work-out weights, or fun work-out clothes.
It’s the small things that I want to help keep me going, and eventually, I want to be able to develope myself into someone who’s successful, and a little less of an emotional-all-over-the-place person.
Stay on the look out for updates, and make sure you keep me accountable!
What are your resolutions this year? How do you into to keep them going? How would you conclude your twenty-eighteen, was it a good year, or one that shall not be named?
I’d love to hear!
HAPPY NEW YEAR, FRIENDS! (Grammar experts everywhere want to murder me for using Uppercase letters and an exclamation point).
Remember to live your life like the ginchy story that it is!
HaziWords