The Roaring Twenties-New Beginnings

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First of all, if you catch me Phrynne Fisher-ing myself into crime scenes, I don’t want anybody to be surprised, because in the next decade or so I’ll probably do some even more stupid things.

I’m kidding-though everybody in that show’s an icon.

That’s beside the point; though, because it’s Twenty-Twenty, and your girl has some resolutions.

Now, if you read my last post, you’ll know that this is my year of healing. Which is dramatic, but again, if you want to get some context for this years goals-you can check it out.

Moving forward.

I recently worked on my list, and I’ve finally concluded that it’s actually a mighty fine resolution look, considering I’ve broken it down into bite sizes. Confused? So was I going into it, and then I came up with this.

So, I broke my resolutions into the following:

Main Skills

School

Experience

Events (I’m aware those two are redundant, but let’s just roll with it)

Finance

Writing

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      Main Skills

Now for Main Skills, I put Drawing, and Voice Acting. Voice acting is still something I find fascinating, and if nothing else, I’d love to develop a more confident voice that can hook someone into a conversation-because as it stands I’d do a great job at being a Nap Time Professor.

*Ahem*

I digress.

Drawing is something I’ve always enjoyed, and after Inktober, and getting to talk more about art with a good friend of mine, I find myself wanting to develop this skill I have (If this was the Sims I’d be level one).

So, for each of these, I put how I’m going to achieve these goals-such as drawing at least once and week, and applying for VA rolls to get my voice more…I don’t know words right now, but you know, that word that I’m thinking.

                           School

So when it came to school, I’m in my Senior Year-The crunch time is real, my dudes.

So is the lack of sleep. There’s no reason for that, though, I just don’t like sleeping.

I’m rambling. Ultimately, my goals are to complete two local community college classes (It’d be more but this is a self-funded endeavor, and making just a few dollars over minimum wage doesn’t necessarily cover the classes).

I also intend to graduate (being Homeschooled you have to really work for it and apply yourself-I’m the first Homeschooler to graduate in my family, so I’m really treading the way for my younger brother. My point is nobody has any idea on what we’re doing).

Getting into college, as well as passing the SATs are two major things. I even put my ideal scores for the SATs. I’d like to get higher, and ultimately, I’m aiming for hire, but that’s my minimum score. Essentially the entire point with SATs is, I need extra effort for math, and recently I’ve finally relented on the idea that I maybe sorta definitely need help because something is wrong if no matter how hard I study, I don’t understand math. That being said, Third times a charm, and I’m very prepared this time around. (I’d say more on the college front, but dude, that’s self-explanatory, college is my ultimate goal).

 

Experience/Events

I’m combining the two because I was redundant and didn’t realize it until after I finished my list, and was like “Well sugar cookie it, I know what I mean”.

I can assure you in five months’ time, I probably won’t remember why I was so redundant and will think too hard on absolutely nothing.

The events though

Going to a Concert…specifically NeedtoBreathe.

My poor friends had to read my breakdown about not being able to see the band IRL last night in our group chat. I don’t know how they can stand me sometimes.

Go on a missions trip-I’m already signed up for one in June, it’s not out of states, but you know what, I’m a firm believer that missions start at home.

Going on a hike-where I’m aiming to go to college, they are surrounded by mountains, and when I was younger, I loved hiking. I still love it to this day, and it’s honestly something I’d love to do, even just in the mountains near us.

Have a graduation dinner-I don’t want to walk across a stage or do a big party (those are actually options even if I am homeschooled), I just want a small dinner with those I’m close with to celebrate the fact that I finally stinking made it.

Go to Comicon-I don’t know, I just want the experience.

Apply for Jobs near college-I’m broke, I don’t know how to explain why I need to get a job.

 Finance

Save 2,000 (Total)  Whether I burn it on classes or not, that’s the goal

Find the Best Credit card- I know essentially credit cards are bad, but I’ve been doing research and talking with other people, and I’ve found it might help to raise my credit if I can keep up with it. I know that student credit cards have great benefits, and I know I can manage one, I just want to make sure I find the best one for me, for when I turn eighteen.

Learn about Investing- I may be slightly money-hungry, but I really want to learn about investing. If I can invest properly, I might be able to help build my income and work on self-sustainability.

Find a Side Hustle-I have my blog, but it doesn’t do too much; though I know there’s something out there that I can do that can make a little bit of cash on the side of my job.

Writing

Finish Writing First book (Let’s not talk about the fact this has been my goal for five years)

Edit First Book-Yes, this has also been on my resolution list for five years.

I know, it hurts me too.

 

SO

I want to know

What are y’all’s resolutions, and I’m serious, I’d love to know! I always find this time of the year to be so exciting-new beginnings excites me, and I think this year is going to be a great year for a lot of people.

I’ve decided to make a separate post of Spiritual resolutions, because this one is pretty long, and I know I’ll probably get pretty raw about some of my recent struggles, SO

I can’t wait to see you then, and again, let me know-what’re your resolutions? Are you looking forward to this year? Do you have any big events? My brother’s biggest event is he’s getting his learners  permit in another month (they grow up so fast).

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NaNoWriMo 2019

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Right, so NaNoWriMo.

The holiday that all writers celebrate. It’s like a secret code.

“Oh sorry I can’t make it, I’ve got too much to do, NaNo Wrimo and all.”

And then you the signature “WAT”

Even if you do try to write every year, and they ask that…every year.

Listen, like Inktober is to the Artist, NaNo Wrimo is to the writer. It’s like a push, it’s what we do to drive ourselves insane.

And I for one am failing.

In the name of academics and distracted Youtube videos, but I’m failing none-the-less.

But still, I’m bouncing between two stories because I really can’t decide. (I’m easily distracted and love both my stories equally.

SO ANYWAY.

I wanted to talk a little bit about my works (because I’m fabulous like that), and give an idea of what I’m aiming for, this NaNo Wrimo.

When Crime Became Known Justice

I’ve pitched this before on here, and yes it’s a lengthy title, but I’m not fabulous at titles, so it’ll work for now. Now, about the story…

“Ace Yedgerson never backed down from a promise. And with this one, it was no expectation. The same case he promised to investigate for Zanie Sharper, was the same case that led him to walk away from his beloved job as a police officer for Buffalo. The case? Twenty-one year old Harper Mayberry, kidnapped, and her sister found dead in her apartment. The consensus? Uncertain, until now. Because there’s a new Detective Agency in town, and they don’t let cases close until they’ve found the culprit, and they’ll do whatever it takes to show Buffalo what Justice is supposed to be.”

The Cities Darkest Light

Elle Harper was completely out of Asa Conwell’s league. There was no doubt about it-the two were night and day; they were completely different-but without one, the other would almost seem unimportant, and most likely cause damage. And while the two of them tried their hardest to be strong and independent, at the end of the day; they simply weren’t. Two years together had taught them that.
And in two years, it appeared that they weren’t the only ones with a budding romance. Which, Elle and Asa discover on one rather fateful day.
The rundown?
Chandler Harper, CEO of Hopewell’s Electronics goes missing the same day he’s found getting cozy with the secretary. That same day, Maureen Harper seemingly goes insane, and ultimately, the secretary is found dead.
Naturally, Elle Harper is up for top contenders on the suspect list. Lucky for her, it’s part of Asa’s job to find who’s innocent and who’s guilty, and he’s not one to make exceptions, no matter how dangerous, or close to home it actually gets.

Both of these stories are mysteries, and they do have a romance aspect to them, but I genuinely enjoy them.

Now that you know what I’m working on, let’s observe my goals.

Very simply, write ten chapters I enjoy for each work.

Crazy, right?

Here’s the thing, I’m studying for a very large part of my life (SATS), and failure is not something I will accept a second time.

SO

I’m trying to balance both, without wanting to poke my eyeballs out.

Too late, but a girl can try.

So now, the real question stands.

Are you, good friend, willing to take even the most simple of NaNoWriMo challenges, or are you chilling on the sidelines?

Because either’s cool, I find personally, that it’s one of those months that has a universal goal, but it’s a different journey for everyone, and it’s subjective for each person. Like for my brother, he’s never written a story before in his life, but he’s recently had a story idea he can’t shake and wants to work on it. NaNoWriMo for him is just learning the basics, like creating characters and the basics, and that’s okay.

That being said, I’d love to hear your goals for NaNoWriMo, and as it’s the month of writing, not to be too blatantly obvious, but definitely check out Grammarly, It’s pretty much a lifesaver, and once you write and draft your book, you’re going to need some more editing, and Grammarly is definitely the way to go (my mom has the app on her phone and loves it).

SO, your challenge, is to tell me what your plans are this November/NaNoWriMo, and tell me, if you could see any prompt/trope put into a movie/book, what would it be?

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We Did Alright

So, yet another thing I’ve written a bit ago. I don’t know if it makes sense, but either way-enjoy!

Remember when we were younger, and things didn’t matter to us, other than making sure we made it to bed on time before mom suspended our tv privileges?
Remember when we lived in a time where reality was just something that we saw on TV, that the games we played used Tonka Trucks, pretending that they were all stuck in the mud, come in off the bike all dirtied up, and the biggest fear was what we messed up with the dirt on our shoes?
Yeah?
   Wish I could say that was the truth for now, but the thing is that I look back on the memories, and I’m starting to realize they weren’t all happy for me. I struggled with so much to stay in the same spot, claim that I’ve done a lot, look at me now, I hit emotional highs and bring myself down, claim I’m what will bring fame to this horror-ridden town.
See the truth is that behind the smile I copy and paste onto my face, I struggle so much.
She’s a good girl they say as I walk away, with a fake smile on my face like everything’s okay. Convince myself I’m being ridiculous like I don’t have a role in this, the mess I call a life of mine, what the heck am I suppose to do this time?

The truth is I’ve never known where I was going or what I was supposed to do. Blame myself, but claim it wasn’t true. I worked my hardest to get here, in the mess I call my life, and as much as I hate myself for it, I’d still say it’s alright. Maybe it’s no longer toy trucks in our years, but we’ve had the memories, and we’ve had our fears-and look where it’s got us, this mess of a life, something that, in the end, shows we did alright.

I HAVE A STORY

Well

Can somebody direct me into a Crash Course on Click Bate titles? Please?

I digress, grab a drink and a hearty bowl of popcorn, marshmallows, and chocolate (Fany cooking post coming soon)-and settle down, because boy, do I have a story for you.

So recently I’ve had to take a bit of a break from blogging-and as I’ve stated, mentally and physically, I’ve been through some stuff.

That being said- during that time I was surviving off of college classes and other classes-specifically, an English class.

And might I just say, English class actually gave me quite a bit of anxiety.

I know, I know, the irony.

See, the thing is, I’m a lot of things (entertaining, adorable, clever, the list goes on), but I am above all, not the most excellent person; grammatically. I might have a general idea, but everything I’ve grown up with (from how to place commas, to fragments), was blown completely out of the water.

So anyway, my teacher was a good teacher, she worked with my constant emails (midnight panics as my grade dropped from a B to a B minus), and was overall very reasonable.

Again, though, grammar was suddenly something I was lacking in, and very suddenly, I couldn’t stand constructive criticism.

So it was my last paper rounding the corner, I had managed to pass that, but the paper I had worked so hard on (How to Save the World), had failed. My teacher had, however, given me the chance to rewrite it, and boy, did I take it.

My citation, it was scum, I was at the writing center twice, to find out how, and then to double-check that I had done it right-however, I still needed to do more.

The grammar, total trash, the layout? Actual peril.

My poor internet besties had to listen to my panic attacks about my grade as well as everything else.

And while there are benefits to being good friends with a plethora of writers, they couldn’t be at my beck and call, trying to fix the mess that was my paper.

What they could do, however, was come up with one HEXUVA suggestion.

Try Grammarly.

Naturally, I was like “Psshh, yeah, whatever”, the stubborn bored person in me doesn’t take help from ANYONE.

However, the stubborn bored person also needed to make sure this grammar hit the mark, and while I was still prodding through fixing it, and it had bettered a great deal, it was still something that you’d find in a Wattpad fan-fiction (A.K.A every single one of my stories).

So I relented, and made the plunge, opening up the browser, I created an account.

And I pasted my paper to the little checker and wow-WAS I SURPRISED. While it did give me general things that I had missed, it also showed me where to tighten up my paper, and things beyond that. Suddenly, I was seeing mistakes, and realizing how I could make the paper better!

And the happily ever after lands where we are today with a nice healthy B.

The point is, that yes, I’m here to promote Grammarly, but my desire to, came from what I experienced from it, and can I just say, the help it provided was incredible. I HIGHLY suggest, that if you’re a student, blogger, or writer (or in general just a person who relies on proper grammar), you check out Grammarly-which I happen to have a link for.

 

That being said, let me know do you use Grammarly? What are your thoughts about it?

New post coming Wednesday!

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Mourning Routine of a School Girl

 

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Well

I’m a student.

I know, I know what you’re thinking.

You’re shocked, you’re confused, and you’re horrified. Don’t worry, so am I.

And yet, I still have another seven years I get to undergo.

I digress, as a High School student, a school girl-a lernin’ child, I have a weird morning routine.

AS IN

I don’t have one at all; but I do have a mourning routine before I start school-and I do kind of have solutions to my mourning routine-and for you if you have one similar, too.

MOURNING SCHEDULE OF A SCHOOL LERNIN’ GIRL

(Oh the irony)

****WARNING THIS IS NOT TO BE USED DURING ACTUAL CLASS IN BRICK AND MORTAR SCHOOLS*****

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STAGE ONE

So like any normal lernin’ child, I start the mourning off with subtle dread, before the process starts. It looks a little like a dying cat, but with the flourish of a ballerina.

You know that feeling, that feeling you get where you’re trying to get yourself to do something but you can’t do something, because, well, you can’t.

Now, this stage is a pretty big stage, and it can be hard to hit. It may be level one of a boss battle, but then, when it comes to the Mourning Stages of  Learnin’ Child-everything is ten times worse.

As stated before, if I catch it in enough time, I do have a solution to this problem of mine.

It starts with a little reward and a little bit of time management.

I highly suggest starting off with an alarm. Set the alarm for a certain period of time (perhaps one hour), and reward yourself with something small, like maybe a chapter in the book your reading (but not video games, those can pull you so far in).

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STAGE TWO

So, you’ve manage to completely skip the dying cat stage. Somehow, you’ve managed to completely procrastinate your way through it-maybe you used my tips. That’s okay, I oftentimes manage to rationalize that, if I allow myself just a little bit more time, I’ll work longer next time. Hex, I’ll go as far as completely rebooting my system just to avoid having something block my search results.

I don’t know why, I’m just desperate to do something-anything different from school.

So you’ve hit stage two, and really, this is where things get tricky, considering there are only three notable stages of a mourning schedule.

So, stage two, the stage that seems impossible, you’ve done the above, or else you’ve managed nap right through the amount of time you should be awake-and welcome to the crunch time.

But of course, you could really use a nap to…so here’s my advice for you.

Pack up your books, because it’s time to leave what you know behind.

It’s best to find a new spot to study-a place you don’t know like the back of your hand-but know well enough. Drop yourself there, plug in a playlist, and get started. You might find yourself distracted at first, but using the same advice from above, and possibly making it a bit more of an enjoyable experience by treating yourself to a special drink and/or snack.

And for the Final Stage

Well, welcome to the end game of all stages. This stage-this final boss battle, it’s the most painful. This is where you’ve managed to do the above, all the while being half-asleep at the same time. And so here you are, minutes away from class. I know what you’re thinking.

There’s no hope here.

You’ve been defeated.

You’re in the final mourning stage, their’s no help, and you’re not awake.

Well grab your coffee and dark chocolate, and have a seat.

Writing things down helps to kick things into your brain, even while on autopilot. Put on Sims music or another game of your choice, and get started. Write every important piece you find on ONE notecard, and at the end of it all, read it. In your autopilot mode, read the notecard. Now, take a quick five minutes to walk, review the notecard, write down the information again, and, above all.

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Are you the type of person to be a mourner of your study schedule? And if so, how do you get out of the slump? I’d love to know!

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Why I believe in Being a Rejected Misfit

**Quick clarification-this is another essay I wrote during my school project, it’s not perfect-I wrote it in a bit of haze-and it’s one of those things it was a bit complicated for me to write. This is a majority of who I am, it’s the story behind yours truly.

 

“Why am I not good enough?” These are the words that played over in my head on repeat for years on end, creeping up on my every laugh, my every comment, or movement.

Those words turned into internal apologies to those around me, in and out of my life. The words shifted into “I’m sorry, I’m not good enough.” I’d like to say that to this day, those thoughts don’t creep up on me, that my laughter doesn’t have a backlash to it. It does, though. These thoughts streamed from years of “You don’t matter”, inadvertently thrown my way, until one year, I faced the people my parents had been spending years defending me from. For the first time in my life, the words “You will never matter.” Left one person’s lips, in an extended, very clear, meaning. “You don’t deserve what you have.”
       Still, I stood there, offering a second chance to this person, trying to give them the broken pieces of my trust, the little I had left, and just like that, they walked away. I was, dejected, disheartened, but most of all, suddenly, very, very, alone.
My parents worked hard to keep me away from this targeted negativity, it’s a little bit harder to do when it’s your own family rejecting, and hurting you, though. They were stuck in a cold, hard place- give up their family they had, or, the family they had created. Guilt was my close friend following that decision. I had put someone in a situation unfair to any man on this earth. I hated causing the inner turmoil, I despised the emotions that came with it. I tried to cover up these emotions, though. I had to prove everyone wrong-prove that I meant something. That I did belong. That there was a reason I was here, and those who never had a chance, weren’t. Why I survived, and they had to die. My rejection from those supposed to love me, started long before my birth, at the unfortunate passing of those who were to born only months before me. The question posed to my parents was few words, but the most painful to hear, and answer.”Why does she get to live, and they had to die?” Throughout my childhood, this statement still lingering, I was pushed aside, teased, and overall, I developed a keen eye for the “unintentional” insults thrown my way. Time and time again, thrown into the idea that I never mattered, and never would. I was never worth giving up certain events for or even listening to for ten minutes. I was never worth enough to be concerned when I was very sick. I was, cold-heartedly rejected.
       The emotions from such a task played hard on me, but I still fought to strive. During these years of pain and rejection, I played with the idea of proudly being an outcast, or even, a Misfit. The term was something my brother and myself had played with for a while, deeming ourselves the “Misfit Twins”, due to the years spent arguing with people who insisted on us being twins. Of course, the term, “Misfit”, used then, meant very simply, “A Different Kind”, but following, the word took on a whole new meaning for us.
We had always played as the outcast in our family, as mentioned before, rejected, both of us in our own ways, feeling the pain. We searched for a way to embrace this difference we felt toward our family, and eventually, to society. Misfit seemed to fit the idea. We were different, we were unique, never meant to fit the mold, proud to have it broken after our design. More importantly, there was a particular song that played a role. “Welcome to the Island of the Misfit Toys”, a rendition done by KJ-52. The song spoke the powerful words of how God loved everybody, and how, even though we were misfits, outcast by our family and society, God was still there for us, He still cared, and, by some small hope, we believed we actually mattered. Even though my parents pushed reassurance of love, and positivity on us, the pain we both felt meant something.
Following the reclamation of the term, and our proud new use, I had another decline in my views on things, the questions I had asked appearing again, apologizing again. I struggled with the idea of being rejected, of being pushed away, but like the term of Misfit, I wanted to turn it into something positive. I didn’t need their acceptance, and to this day, I couldn’t tell you what good enough, actually was. Maybe, I preferred to be rejected for not being good enough, maybe I preferred to be rejected by them, because, if I was accepted, then did that mean I was like them? Perhaps. I continued to plead with God for my purpose, to give me the peace my heart longed for, to give me the strength to heal, to forgive, to finally rest. In the meantime, I decided that a reject was someone I was, and I wasn’t made to always be accepted. I believe in being a reject, I believe in being a Misfit. I believe that God created my story to be that of a Rejected Misfit, and it isn’t as bad as it sounds. I believe that I am here for a reason, I believe that I am, and always will be, a Rejected Misfit, a term I will proudly proclaim.

So I’ve Put Together a List of Writing Help

Well

So I’ve done a thing…

I’ve found some very interesting ways to improve your writing.

Whether it be prompts to tips on the internet-Welcome to your go-to-guide on Writing Help.

Let’s have a look-see at what’s been found.

1) Writing Prompts

Writing Prompts are incredibly helpful, and I believe I have found the best source, would The Fake Red Head. She has writing tips and prompts that can be accessed on both her blog-and on Pinterest.

2) Grammar Advice

If your anything like yours truly, you might find that you have a hard time with certain types of grammar rules/writing. There is help for that so you don’t have to spend hours browsing the internet looking for the perfect source, I can give you the one I learned from my English Class. (My college English class, so you know – educated). Grammar Girl has been the best-found source, and personally, I do enjoy the advice it gives. It offers the information, practice activities and provides it in a way that’s short and simple.

3) Character Creation

Having a hard time figuring out how to write a character-or even creating a character? Well here’s a Character Generator website for you to check out. It offer’s fun details about a character, and gives you a chance to expand your horizons on how you usually write characters!

4) Character Profile

Dani Lee Collins offers excellent tips and layout profile templates for those in. With an array of other articles on the website- this one, in particular, offers the templates that I would highly suggest using.

5) Grammar Checking

Unsurprisingly, one of the websites that I’m here to suggest to you is commonly known- and used already. If you haven’t heard of it though; and you’re looking for an excellent grammar checking website (I’m currently using it to write this post and if you think this version is bad, you should see the errors that pop up while writing it) is Grammarly. There are a variety of ways you could use Grammarly, and I actually used it to double-check errors made in my essays.

6) Story Structures

While there are a plethora of sources for finding the perfect way to layout your story,  Kristen Kieffer, of Well-Storied offers an excellent source, providing 3 plot structures -giving you the optimal options for your storytelling.

With these websites, I hope you find some help with whatever your struggles might be. I personally have recently discovered or used these sources for a while. As someone who’s just getting back into the writing game, I find myself more excited about the idea of using these.

And don’t worry, if you’re more of a mobile device user (I started off that way), then I have a list compiled of the apps I suggest for you.

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Have you used any of these sources-and if so, what are your thoughts? Do you have any source suggestions? I’d love to know!

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Articles Referenced

Kieffer, Kristen. “3 Awesome Plot Structures For Building Bestsellers – Well-Storied.” Well-Storied, Well-Storied., 8 Feb. 2015, https://www.well-storied.com/blog/3-awesome-plot-structures-for-building-bestsellers

Collins, Dani Lee. “Free Character Profile Template: The Author’s Journey.” Dani Lee Collins, 27 Nov. 2018, http://www.danileecollins.com/2018/05/character-profiles/